Life's Beautiful...

2010-07-08T20:19:00.002+07:00

work has been fine.
school is managable,
the only thing tat i'm not going well is driving.

no idea why i just cant get the biting point properly.
is either i took too long to start the car, if not the whole car will jump
worst come to worst, it dies.
the vehicle behind me so unlucky.

i've been really really good recently.
routine is work and home.
seldom go out.
dont even talk bout gg shopping!

i'm trying my very best to achieve what i wanna achieve.
i want to be different.
different from what ppl think of me.

i always feel very very relax when i see their faces.

home-y

stephanie, aint she kawaiii?

2010-06-13T07:53:00.002+07:00

HELLOOO

i know i've been neglecting this lil space of mine.
i got pretty busy after starting on my new job,
getting in night classes,
and finally started on my practical class.

i had never been so occupied till this extend i barely have my own private time.
the only private time i have would be sleeping i guess.
and i've been really a good girl
is either i go home straight from work,
or i go home after work and went for my classes.

have been cutting down alot on meeting my ladies recently.
everyone is busy i guess.
yunny has started work about 1 month after me.
and she's coping well in her department.

picking up new things in work everyday.
a bit hard to digest cus it always come in bulk.
well, that's life i guess.
luckily i had a bunch (well, just 3) of colleagues who is willing to help after me making mistakes over and over.

school has been good,
but without the maths will be better.
i never like maths,
neither do i now.
classmates are O-kay,
all of them are pretty hadworking.
luckily i'm in the right group for project,
and proudly say that we have done our eng project in the first meetout,
lecturer feels that just a lil amendments to do done.
now left the maths.
i hope we can finish it successfully.

driving has been..
well,
i think mr chua gg to let me make him go crazy.
i always release the clutch to quickly
until he get a lil pissed here and there.
oh yes, i need to go of for my lesson alrd.
stop here, and i promise i'll be back soon.

WAIT FOR ME!!

2010-04-23T12:45:00.002+07:00

My very very overdue pictures.
carine and the rest bought a cake and we went up to celebrate
leaving all the children doing work.
carine lied to them that teachers need a meeting
so all of them was kinda quiet.

it was all surprises from them.
very sweet ,very thoughtful of them.
hopefully i can get along with my future colleagues and superior.
not easy but i'll definitely try my best to do so.

life have been pretty relax for me.
all i did was eat, sleep, tv, go out.
1 more week to go b4 i get my ass to serious matter.

studies and new job came in tgt.
hopefully i'm able to cope and do it well.

gg to sign the appointment later with bbpy and lilg.
aftermath will waalk ard and home i guess.

what a lazy lazy lifee...

the boy!

oh my pretty girls...

clubbing next week with my ladies.

2010-04-21T22:06:00.002+07:00

after 2 days of jobless life.
i finally receive a call from the first company i went.
and they're employing me.
happy! happy!

new job will be starting on 3may.
hopefully everything will go well.
and of cus meaning i have to get more bottoms to match my tops for work.

sch will be starting very soon after my work starts.
hopefully i'm able to cope well with both if them.

as promised,
i decided to go drinking session with my ladies.
to celebrate my new job.
time and venue shall be re-confirm.

still have a few more days to rest before the new chapter of my life starts.
not easy to work and study but i have to definitely try my best.
i dont try, i can never know.
but my dear friends,
that means i'll have lesser time to spend with u all.
be it chilling session or any event gg on that falls on my study days will be affected.
21 months will end very fast.
bear with me a lil while.

alright i guess i gg to knock out soon.
i wanna go for my morning strolling session b4 work start.
have been intaking alot of junkies.

night all

2010-04-19T20:50:00.002+07:00

Finally i have time for my movie session last weekend.
MONGA!
the girls and i had so much fun spending time tgt.

BB for siti's flea market
follow by west mall for lunch.
and vivo for MONGA

the movie was great.
very very nice.
am pretty sure the rest of the girls enjoyed the movie too.

carrot met her R
and i met buddy R at thomson
had porridge for supper
and home sweet home.

anw, it's my last day today.
it happened so fast cause of the issue (partially)
the children were shocked to receive the news.

they questioned me like
"when will u come back again?"
"why must you go study?"
"can dont leave?"

the entire day today was bad for me.
doing pick up for the last time.
doing teaa break the last time.
marking assessment bks for the last time.

a mixture of feeling within me.
so much i hate to leave.
i swallowed my tears and force myself not to cry.

i still did.
all i do was hiding inside the toilet and cry.
i have no idea why am i so emotional.
useless me.

well, whatever is done, couldn be undone.
i have to look forward
i have pratical to do,
i have sch to attend,
i have to find a job

there's an interview tmr.
hopefully it'll be successful.
i dun wanna rot too long.

dad, pls bless me!

get me a job asap ~

2010-04-14T09:58:00.004+07:00

Suntec for buffet.
WCRC for bowling.
and home sweet home on birthday

from sisterhood

from the children

from carine

mummy only know how to give angbao

very very overdue pictures

more pictures will be up soon =)

2010-04-13T10:25:00.002+07:00

大叔啊,大叔.
昨天是 sweet 的咯.
虽然你的嘴是贱了点,可是你 never fail to brighten my day.
真不知道以后我们会变成怎样.
可是我 cherish 我们在一起的每个时刻.
因为有你的不离不弃,
还有你的不断 scolding.
让我对人身有了一个 rough idea of what i wanna achieve.

今年的生日虽然又是和朋友度过.
可是比往年来的快乐.
因为拥有着一群的猪朋狗友
是我这辈子最快乐的事.

还有学生们和同事的surprise,
indeed 让我终身难忘.

pictures will be up soon =)
stay tune

2010-03-30T09:44:00.002+07:00

I'm the burger QUEEN!

yst work was alright
but tired.
probably due to the sleepless night i had the day before.

carrot and py love came to my work area for dinner.
to ease the craving of the chicken rice.
bus-ed to clementi tgt and parted
carrot headed back home,
py went to meet znn for atlantis.

me lehs?
go home la, of cus.
and i knock out pretty early and fast.
like 11plus i guess.

he just rang me.
teasing bout the msg sent him last night.
and grumble about how sg'reans drives.
early in the morning grumble so much.
hope next time i'll not meet him on road la.

i guess by this thurs i need to go enroll for school liao.
and i'll ring up instructor tmr and book a date for my virgin drive.
and i need a job badly and seriously.
1 more month and i'm leaving junior talent.
i cant go on without a job la.

i'm kinda disappointed cus i weigh myself
and realised i actually weigh heavier and compare to yst.
where does the effort i put in on yst when to?
drain?
so i decided not to go out and walk today liao.
and my muscles are aching.
painful!

i wanna go eat the mee hoon kway mummy cook liao.
ciaoz

2010-03-29T11:25:00.003+07:00

Sunday was beautiful.
off to great world in the noon.
first stop is ben and jerry's
cant imagine i acctually spend a 10bucks over on a drink.
somemore not very nice.
strawberry lemonard,
u dont worth the price la.

"how to train your dragon"
with py, carrot and znn
show was good.
i didn manage to doze off.

chilled a while and znn off for her own programme.
while me, carrot and py had our chat in mac.
main lead is carrot!
want to know why?
ask me! i MIGHT share!

finally able to meet the forever busy man yst.
met him at the dessert shop opp great world.
theanks to his intro lo.
the coffee mix with milk tea.
tastelesss + bitter.
ended our day at 703 void deck.

and he'll be busy this coming few months.
alot of biz trip to go.
my muar trip, my soon-to-be genting and KL trip!
all postpone lo.

anw, i did something really crazy today.
i slept at nearly 4am and i woke up at 7plus am.
i got nothing better to do so i went out in my slippers.
and lil did i know i walk and walk for 1 damn hr.
from my place towards wc park then from there toclementi woods then to the blocks behind plaza then from the old kent ridge to market to find my love mummy and back to wc park.
1 big round from wc park to mash garden
then from there i walk home.
it took me 1 hr to accomplish all these.
i guess i got a lil depression over here.
haha

pictures time

with bb yun ard cfm gt pictures

i got malaysian look mehs?

sat- bowling time!

jack's place for dinner on sat

think i look damn cui in the following pictures above

i cant believe wcp is so beautiful in the morning!

guess i'm addicted to walking.

tmr shall try how long i walk from wc to pandan.

rmb i did tried b4 with yen when i was in sec (out of bo-liaoness of cus)

time to get my ass to work. ciaoz

2010-03-28T09:28:00.002+07:00

a brief update on this week before i proceed to the next.

make my way to PSB on fri tgt with yunny and carrot
enquire on the course and i'll enroll it this week.
dont wanna waste anymore time.

i had a wonderful yst.
suntec for the job fair,
which was not pretty much things there.
shop and ate b4 we make our way back to WC recreation centre
our virgin time bowling tgt.

nails chipped,
shouting, screaming from genial.
cheering for each other.
we're just like lil kids when we're tgt.

genial was cranky yst,
making everyone a lil exhausted while dealing with her.
nevertheless, she know we love her as much.
maybe a lil lesser than her mummy does =P

we end our day with PATAYA
our fav hang out of the year.
parted at 12mn plus.

and today,
i've promised carrot that i'll catch
"how to train a dragon"
geek, dont doubt me!
i'm so gg to watch with her!

i hope it's not gg to bore me.
i dont wanna find myself dozing away
whaha.

alright,
time for beautiful pictures!

she never fails to make me smile =)

i realise i need to do something to my hair soon.

fri- outdoor day!

shermin, she came to me on fri, held my hand. she said"teacher hweeying, you really slim down alot". after that she showed me her innocent and sincere smile. thanks sweetie for the encouraging words.

later part in the day, she asked me why i didn place the picture of me and her on my displace pic and insist i must put it after taking. how to resist sucha sweet lil girl?

AHA, PDL. i've dragged 1 month to take this.

and got scolding from mama and carrot each time they asked bout it.

i'm so gonna get my licence!

spot me on the road, hopefully soon =)

i'm thankful for the ones who have been standing by me,

from my lowest part of life to who i'm now.

dont worry, time will heal.

maybe i just need a lil longer time than expected=)

2010-03-26T08:46:00.003+07:00

i started off my day pretty lousy
as i backed out ffom the clinic where i'm suppose to go for an interview.
aircon-less, and very olden kind.
hence i walk out without being interviewed.

i cab to tiong to have a walk cause it's still pretty early for me to get to work.
window shopping ard.
bus-ed to work.
and i saw someone whom i had always wished to.

i cannot believe my reaction upon seeing him driving past me when i was in the bus.
i guess he didn change much
he modify his ride exactly like how he wished to when i was with him.
change exhaust, spoiler and etc etc.

and i had problem with one of the kid yst till i just feel like stranggling him.
thinking back,
that was how i behaved when i was a kid too.
an attention seeker,
trying to go oppose the teachers, parents.

i tried to talk to him,
he did the same thing tat i've done.
all he did was kept quiet.
refused to utter a single word.

tough being a teacher,
esp a good teacher.
i'm not a good one.
but i did try my very best in this job.

i'm still looking for a day time job.
and finally i'm gg to enroll my biz admin course tonight.
R say he'll acc me there if he ends his golf session early.
well well well, i dont pin much hope la.
he always got last min changes.

i dont know what kind of feeling i had now.
i just dont feel good.
his image just keep flashing through my mind.
i though i've longed forgotten bout his presence.
i thought i'm stronger now and his re-appearance wun affect me much.
I WAS WRONG
SO VERY WRONG.

maybe i still need a lil more time.
so maybe i need a lil more things,
to divert my attention.

carrot was right,
all along i'm just numbing myself.
it's not the real me.
what have i become?

on a happier note,
it's finally weekend again!
sat will be heading to convention centre with py loves for the job fair.
and yes yes, i'll be getting my PDL in the morning.
keep dragging and dragging.
everyone's scolding me liao.

the road ahead is gg to be tough,
i wish i can be tougher.

2010-03-19T20:36:00.004+07:00

The 1 week torturing school holiday has finally come to an end.
i'm gonna miss some of them like hell.
cus i seldom go in the morning and i'm unable to see them.

well, it has been a pretty tiring week for me.
all the way from wednesday,
my working hours have prolonged.
cause of the shortage of man-power.

now i haven enroll my lesson
yet to get my PDL.
i'm so useless la!

anw...

we went for outing today.
IMM!
they had their project work to be completed in the morning
follow by lunch
and sky-park in the afternoon.

they enjoyed and we, teachers enjoyed laughin by their actions.
i had a hard time, changing them after they played with the water.
they're so damn funny.
imagine a P1 girl tell me she shy to change infront of me
and insist to change in the cubicle herself.

pictures up!

my favourite P1 girl

colouring contest

outdoor activities

aint she super adorable?(IMM)

natalie and jasmine

with some of them

i brought the big ones to have food court while the younger ones had mac

ngui K.X

EnHui

i love her far too much. jasmine

natalie

xiang yuan

they had a good time.

preparing to HOME SWEET HOME

2010-03-17T20:15:00.002+07:00

HEADACHE!

pls bless that i'm able to pull though these 2 days.
and i can have a good rest on friday night and a lovely weekend ahead.

time for bed.
goodnight

2010-03-15T20:41:00.002+07:00

bugis, suntec convention hall on sunday.
had a good "squeeze" in the IT fair.

this week is gonne be a tedious one.
teacher song is back to china hence all of us have to do OTs
children are all coming back full day cause of the sch holiday.

had a lil mini meet up session with py and lil g.
lunch and shop a lil
b4 i rushed to work in cab.

yet to enroll due to the last min changes of duty on sat.
and this weekend program have planned
let's hit ECP on sat and JB on weekend.

i wanna go cycling and walk.
i wanna enjoy the sunlight, the breeze.

and a lil pamper on my nails on sunday.
my finger nails are so so so long.
so difficult to get things done.

overdue overdue picture

my precious!

work work work

lil genial and big love

illuma

2010-03-08T20:53:00.003+07:00

Day-out with my ladies on sunday.
headed to suntec to get mama's present.
then follow by some minor shopping.

bus-ed to JE
yen picked us at popular,
headed to bishan for prawning.

dinner there,
3hrs of prawning session.
catch was BAD

home at 1.45am.
knock out straight after i got home.

i woke up at 7this morning
got ready for interview.
i need a job.
a job which i can leave at 6pm.

anyone care to introoo?

i walked from clementi back to my place today.
it just take about 20 min.
a form of exercise,
i wanna lose more weight.

PSB tmr with bb yun.
i need to sleep soon.
i'm verryyy tired.

pictures up!

yes, jacket again lo.

lagi fat

ZARA fitting room

BISHAN!

yen's creation

took by hai bin staff.

2010-03-02T21:08:00.002+07:00

i'm feeling very restless these few days.
sleep really early and waking up very early too.
not sure what's wrong with me.

i look into the mirror just now,
and realised alot of change on my face.
dark eye ring, and alot of tiny tiny i-dunn0-what-shit.
getting old.

feeling extremely bloated
but yet feel like eating all the time.
driving me crazy.
i guess half of my life is all about eating,
which is like a decade.

my nails are very long.
but i dread to do it in sg.
they charge super high plus they always buff until not balance one.
i want my jb trip!

hitting genting and KL in another 2 weeks time.
but this time round i dun seems to excited.
well, not even a lil bit.

and i have been keeping myself away from meeting new ppl.
camping at home alone in the night.
something which i prefer to do it now.
i like the quietness and the emptiness.
where i dont have to bother much,
all i do was doing something i like.
home is still the best place afterall.

the children finally finish their test.
now it's time for the teachers to crack our brain and organise programs.
and tolerate the market alike noise level.

and april will be my last month working there.
need to prepare for sch and get another job.
i'm sure i'll miss the kids over there.
their innocence, their smiles
the times i pick them up outside their sch no matter it's rain or shine.
the times i held their hand across the road.
the bonding we had.
a memorable one.

i guess i'm gonna miss them like how i miss rachelle, gishelle and eshelle.

end the post with their adorable smile.

good night

2010-03-01T20:35:00.003+07:00

we celebrated our last day of CNY tgt.
vivo for la senza shopping spree.
followed by laksa steamboat

five of us
where, shan, znn, py and me.
total damaged is $107.
which i feel it's kinda expensive.

after which we make our way to anchor pt.
supper @ xin wang.
and share cabbie home

weekend just burnt off like this.
terrible!
and look like this week gonna be the same too.

oh yes,
did i mention i received a call from our long-lost yen
telling me she wanna date us for prawning session this weekend.
her never ending tests and examinations.

time to buck up on my pratical.
have even started ever since i passed my FTT last mth.
and soon i'm gg to enroll in PSB.
sales and marketing here i come!

alright, time to hit the sack.
tmr i gg for morning walk again.
i kept eating non stop recently.
and put on some weight.
aunty is gg to visit.
bo bian!

looking at the pictures make me kinda miss the foodie.

fei zhu eating in action

CNY last day

没那麽简单,就能找到,聊得来的伴,尤其是在,看过了那麽多的背叛...

没那麽简单,就能去爱,别的全不看,变得实际,也许好也许坏各一半...

2010-02-26T10:51:00.002+07:00

after typing so much,
no idea why but i just deleted it off.

god, return me back my old self!

2010-02-24T22:18:00.002+07:00

i had the biggest arguement with R
i hate to talk to him, i hate his attitude towards me.
i blocked him, i delete him away from my phonebook.
i want you to get out of my life.
you sucks, sucks big time.

i shed a few drops of tears,
well, have been so long since i cried.
anw, we shouldnt have "started".
though i feel a lil hurt here and there.
but it's ok.
life's gonna be better.

i read joanna's blog and realised eshelle have difficulties in speaking full sentence.
i felt sad,
but am very sure this can be overcome if she speaks more and have better guidance.
i miss those times when i'm with her,
sitting by her side,
watching winnie the pooh and tom & jerry with her.
i miss her adorable smile and the way she insist me on carrying her.
the way she call me jiejie and the times where we played in the malls.
good old times.

work have been pretty hectic
cause CA is round the corner and my princes and princesses are busy prepaing for tests.
seems like teachers are more anxious than them.
alot of marking to be done.

it has not been a very smooth yr for me.
firstly, i got sick on cny.
which it doesn happen to me b4.
secondly, alot of conflicts and arugements with the ppl ard me.
lastly, i have yet to accomplished what i should.
ie, calling up for the private instructor and enrolling in private courses.

well, have made up my mind to pursue something like sales and marketing.
if i gt the time i might wanna take up early childhood courses after that.
my lousy 2010.

i wish i could be a lil more occupied.
and a lil more useful.
i dont wanna be a failure!

on the happier note,
brothers are planning to open a hp shop.
and big bro ask me to help them out since i might wanna continue pursuing my studies.
and they're getting a ride.
i'll get my things settle b4 i leave this job.
and i want my occupied life back.

i wanna run away from things which i detest.
i wanna have more money in my wallet.
i wanna be more educated.

give me strength, give me motivations.

2010-02-23T08:59:00.003+07:00

yunny's 22nd birthday.

we had a dinner tgt at say cheese the day before with lil G and our special guest.
lil g was cranky hence it wasn't a really good one.
we separated and special guest is kind enough to send me and znn to yishun.
znn went golden mile while i met R.

the actual birthday was celebrated at st james.
everyone was kinda over dressed that day.
all the killer-heels, dresses and not forgetting znn's super short dress with stockings.

well, that doesn stop them from dancing,
even at dance floor.
while me and where had a good time,
sitting at our table,
doing people watching.
yunny had a great time,
drinking all the mixed liquor.
and hence and K.O at about 2am.

headed home tgt
while znn and zw continued their night with dajie and co.
i hope yunny had a great time,
maybe not towards the ending part but the starting part.

cough is much better after intaking a lil alchohol.
lack of alchohol like what dajie say lo.
i'm getting back my voice,
uhoooo~

met up with the girls last night,
as usual, good laugh, good atmosphere.
we always come out with the funniest and the most illusion topic when we crap.
like driving a convertible each.
then znn will go like, we'll park outside club 1 whole row and stuff like this.
damn hillarious.

hit home,
took medications
and Zzzz

2010-02-16T10:22:00.005+07:00

Good times always passes real fast,

and it's alrd the third day of cny.

i guess i'm falling sick alrd.

cough, flu, muscle ach all come find me.

probably due to the lousy weather.

it's causing everyone to fall sick easily.

i put on a reasonable amt of weight this 3 days.

which is consider OKAYE for me cus it's cny.

cny day1

went er gu hse,

coincidentally. i met my long long time no see cousins and nephews

tat's show how much i've aged.

cus they're still very very young in my memory.

now they're so much taller,

some are even in army.

i met py, lil g and where after hus visiting,

we had a four-some vday celebration at fish and co.

then followed by wcp walk.

how sweet hor?

bet lil g had a great time with the PEESAW.

cny day 2

went xiao gu hse b4 meeting py and carrot.

thai express for lunch.

then znn hus with where, carrot, py and lil g

lil g had endless energy.

had a hard time entertain her.

bet xinxin love her company too.

home sweet home b4 12 when zmm's friends arrived.

seems like we're getting old,

we no longer able to play throughout the night,

no longer able to stay till wee hours.

seeing zmm's friends remind me of how we were in the past.

12mn is definitely still young for us at that time.

and now, what have we become?

all the old and lazy bones.

i miss mummy,

and she'll be back today.

wee~

ciaos ppl, feeling sleep again =)

2010-02-13T21:20:00.002+07:00

i woke up early at 7am in the morning,
prayed daddy,
see doc,
knock the " bai guo" for mummy
vaccum the floor
mop the floor.

i'm so tired.
i feel like sleeping yet i cant.
cause i haven help mummy use the red paper to curl around the oranges.

every year was steamboat,
this yr was special.
i had MAGGIE MEE for dinner.
yes reunion dinner.
i cooked for myself,
and sit down there makan myself.
damn ko lian!

bros were both busy at the shop,
mummy lehs, was busy packing stuff tmr.
she's gg back to segamat for a few days.

so hence this yr,
marked my virgin time,
having maggie mee, alone in a dining table.

UNCLE R is sweet today.
called me while he's waiting for his hippo to be washed.
chat a lil and we hung up when he reach home.

then i text him just now.
and wish him happy vday.
DASU jiu shi DASU
xiao qi gui!
yst words bring today say.
but end up still give in to me.

and i'm smiling to myself.
just like an idiot in front of the lappy.
just BECAUSE OF DASU R lo.

muar trip will have a high chance of cancelling.
but dasu say if it's gg to cancel,
we'll go ktv.
haha, did i mention that dasu can sing very very very well.
esp hokkien song!

vday vday vday
nobody date me.
nobody ask me for dinner.
looks like will be another chilling day with sisters.
2nd yr without a valentine!

last but not least,
i wish everyone happy cny and vday.
those got partner,
enjoy it.
those who doesnt,
try harder lo!!!

the "bai guo" i knocked using the entire afternoon

not much ppl also pester me bring them go playground.

my silly babies

i'm praying,

very hard that your biz trip will be cancel.

dasu, you're very very special.

very very unique.

2010-02-12T10:51:00.002+07:00

i did something damn bo liao this morning.
same routine,
woke up, weigh myself and wash up.
and i took out all my cny clothes to try on.
in case they cant fit me in anymore.

and i took some pictures with them on.
and i realise this year,
i bought clothes tat covers all up to my neck.
unlike the past yr,
almost all was revealing.

i'm kinda happy with the clothes i bought.
and i matched them with my bottoms.
this yr style was like more girly.
no idea why oso.
when have i become like this?
seems like i've changed pretty much throughout a yr.
i hope i dont look lian-ish with them on.

yet to get my brows trim cause i was super lazy yst
due to the weather.
guess today i need to hit plaza and get some last min trimming by the ah neh.
threading i mean.
hope they dont anyhow anyhow!

he called this morning which he seldom does.
i was elated.
very very!
then chatted a while and guess he need to go busy with his work.
and he promise he'll call me back.
hopefully later part of the day.

regarding the muar getaway,
seems like he need to be in malaysia for a biz trip on fri.
no idea if it'll crashes with our plan.
but he told me he'll try to do something bout it.
yunny, stop laughing away!
i noe pisces ppl all silent killer.
i lose, i lost!
aries the loyal bitch is the damn damn loser!

alright pictures up!

do i look good with all cover up or revealing ones?

on the way home after a lazy lazy day at work.

i think the second pic doesn look like me.

carrot hor?

2010-02-11T09:26:00.002+07:00

i met up with my girls at tbp yst.
shop a lil and chill.
like usual, we chill more than we shop.

znn and zw left half way for the atlantis session.
while me carrot and yunny chilled till 11 plus and cab home.

i booked an appointment with nadia to get my brows done.
haha, so long since i trimmed there.
i usually get damn lazy den end up trimming myself.

a few more days to cny and to vday.
my girls and me will be celebrating it tgt again =)
that simply shows that all of us was single lo.
ko lian!

mummy will be out of town,
no love mummy cooked food.

pictures, pictures and pictures!

how adorable can they be when they're not cranky

snap-shot by yingying when i'm doing marking

and i just took this yst.

i noe, pictures are prettier.

damn sad luh!

i totally have no idea why am i kept thinking bout you.

2010-02-10T09:55:00.002+07:00

met yunny's "best friend" last night.
he had his supper at the place we first met.
and he told me he was eating the exact same thing on our first date.
damn it, he always have his very own, special way to deal with me.

i'm so careless.
i just swing open the door without noticing there's a curb beside.
and when i ask him just now,
he told me there's scratches.
ahh, damn careless of me.

god damn guilty lo!

yst he told me if i were to slim down again,
he'll bring me to KL and genting.
damn ridiculars la.
muar haven go want tok bout genting and KL.

so he asked me to take leave on next thurs and fri.
and if there's nothing gg on with him,
he'll fulfill my dream to muar with him and his "hippo".
but i insist to come back on fri evening.
cause yunny's birthday dinner.
i'm not gonna missed it.

we'll see if he mark his words anot.
always last min change of plan.
irritating pisces.

on a happier note.
i weigh myself this morning.
P really damn powerful.
make me lost 0.4kg just in one damn day.
i have like 4 more days to go.
think i still can lost another 1 plus kg.

i'm so tired now due to the super duper hot weather.
but i need to prepare for work soon.

damn damn boring!

2010-02-09T08:47:00.002+07:00

my weight has been gg up everyday by 0.1.
i couldn take this strong impact and i popped P just now.
i hope it helps me to cut down my eating habits.
have been craving for chips and all those unhealthy food recently.
and i not only crave, i make sure i get it and put inside my damn mouth.

met braised egg last night for dinner.
super sweet of him just to come down for pasir ris and acc me for just 2hrs.
and damn lo,
i think taurus and aries gum ist?
he even give me surprises..
felt loved.

sadly i didn manage to meet up Mr SLK for coffee.
guess he fell asleep.
must be tired.

i have no idea how did i injuried my damn leg.
it was at left last week and now changed to right yst.
it's pretty painful towards the end when i'm gg home.
again, i be my own doc.
rub rub and rub last night before i slept and i felt pretty much better now.

i'm still thinking of the bag i saw last sunday.
kinda regret for not buying tat.
it's a beautiful piece but zw and yunny say not nice.
damn depressed.

alright alright
been pretty long since i took pictures of myself.
there u go...

trying out the shades we bought for JM

i know, i look damn funny

JB JB JB!

well, the following pictures are not for weak heart....

wahaah

i find myself moving further and further away from you...

2010-02-06T21:26:00.002+07:00

i'm glad that i manage to pass my FTT during my first try-out yst.
i was shivering cold while waiting cus i left early for my practice.
while taking my test,
i manage to ans most qns without much pondering.
i was so glad that it was a PASSED instead of my forever FAILED sign.

i walked out of the room laughing to myself cus i was darn happy la.
put in lil effort and manage to see the result.
i texted where this morning and ask for her instructor's number.
THY is gg on the road soon.
i'll get my PDL this coming monday.
and hopefully able to be a legal driver end of this yr.

i've been eating alot and i dun dare to weigh myself anymore.
hopefully it doesn bounce back so much.
what to do, cny mood ma.
ba guas, cookies, chocolates.
all my fav lehs.
now i'm worrying if i still manage to fit into the clothes i bought earlier on.

next 2weeks will be full of events.
cny, vday, yunny's bdae, mama bd pre-celebration.
it all requires to eat and drink.
i can forsee i'll gain a hell lot of weight after cny.
good luck liao lo.

hitting JB tmr.
need to get my nails done
and will be heading to eliato to get some remover.
guardian is having having store wide 20% discount.
dunno JB have anot hor?

i guess i need to turn in early today.
pretty sleepy.
all thanks to my work today,
which requires me to wake up at 530am.

i need a valentine...

2010-02-03T10:23:00.002+07:00

i manage to pass my FTE a few days back.
and now i hope i can successfully pass my FTT this friday.
due to my laziness,
i've yet to hit bbdc for more practices.
hence making me super worry for failing this friday.

1 more week to cny,
we're hitting jb to make nails this weekend i hope.
my toes ones are turning me off.
shall i do a gel one?

yawn,
work has been pretty fine.
alot of pick ups recently.
and thanks for the massive pick ups,
i didn gain much weight for eating alot alot of ba-guas and cny goodies.

so now i guess all i need was a pair of jeans,
hopefully 1 shoulder bag, 1 handbag and maybe more shoesss
and more tops for cny.
i got a ruffle top and a ruffle dress for this cny alrd.

no idea why but i'm feeling a lil restless today.
i guess i need to turn in early tonight.
alright gonna prepare for work.

ciaos

2010-01-29T21:23:00.002+07:00

as expected, i failed my FTE.
and we totally have no idea why pylove didn book hers.
so she ended up waiting outside for me.
re-booked the FTE this sunday, which was the last day we have to pass.

and something damn unpleasant happened.
we wasted our trip from BBDC all the way to JH
just because someone told pylove that she wanna prawning.

and what we got in the end was telling us that if she were to prawn alone,
den might as well we dont go there.
so ya, end up we're the dumbest one.
to cab from bb all the way to JH just because today is her off-day.
and all the way from JH to WC.

worst of all,
no apologies received.
definitely not about the money issue.
but the damn effort we put in.

and on top of that,
i have to tolerate her temper,
and her attitude while discuss how to get there.

so i end my day with this nonsense.
what a "wonderful" start of the weekend..

if u're upset regarding the status of fb,

in future dont comment me.

i guess u shud know my style of handling stuff.

and what's more,

it was just meant to be a joke.

2010-01-27T07:13:00.003+07:00

you should know how important you're to me.

you're irreplacable.

i guess i'll never get the ones i want,

and always ended up getting those who i dont.

2010-01-22T08:52:00.002+07:00

i cant imagine if one day i have my own kids.

and they're as adorable as them.

cuteness lehs.

how to handle?

2010-01-21T20:01:00.002+07:00

i'm eating so damn much recently.
all becus of the pills i'm taking now.
causing me to feel hungry easily.
it's been kinda long i didn take so much rice like what i took just now.
1bowl plus i think.
WEIGHT is gg up!
up and up~

i've tender.
and will work till end of feb.
1 more month to let me look for a better job.
with a better pay of cus.

i reserved a lunch buffet at M hotel for maggie mama.
to celebrate her birthday in advance on the 24th.
hope she enjoy my lil arrangement.

yes, bb py.
been kinda long since we went for "discreet" date.
thanks to my weak body.
butbutbut, this sat i guess i gg china town with my mom.
sunday lehs, no idea what if i can escape cus grandpa and cousins gg back.
i'm meeting andy tmr for dinner and hopefully no aeroplane again.

oh yes, something very random.
i went clementi to do a express manicure.
and it cost a $16.05
i feel it's kinda ex.
somemore i rejected applying colours.
cus i always ended up destroying it the moment i step out of the shop.

kind of tired.
veryvery lazy to move ard.
and later gonna help my mum to do some stuff.
boring la.

i'm missing atlantis.
no idea why.
HAHA
all so random la!

2010-01-19T22:46:00.002+07:00

each time i tried to be angry with you,
i tried to ignore you phone calls.

but i have no idea.

why i always ended up answering,
and the anger just fade away when i hear your sickening voice.

you stupid idiot,
neglected me!
end up call me and make me miss u more.

i hate your clients, everything that makes u a busy man.
i just have a lil wish.

and is to get to see you, more often!
you stupid fool!

pls tc and not fall sick again~~

2010-01-17T22:45:00.002+07:00

if only we can stay like this...

like what you said,

if one day i got married,
we'll still be like this..

nothing will ever change.

for you're just so special in my heart =)

2010-01-14T17:16:00.002+07:00

ups or down
rain or shine.

you're always by my side.
giving me unconditional love.

you're there when everyone abandon me
you're there when i'm in great pain.

you sacrify your sleep, your money,your life, willingly
just for me.

you nv give up on me at any point of time in my life,
my bad, for not cherishing you in the past.

for now,
mummy, you're my everything in life.

i love you!

2010-01-12T15:49:00.003+07:00

i started my new year with pain all over my body.
the cramps had been with me for a week or so.
hoping that it'll somehow gets better,
it get really really bad yst towards the end of the day.

bad till the extend i alight at clementi and told a cab home.
and mummy and bro was very shocked to find me in such pain.
mummy wanted to sent me to hospital but i rejected.
told her i'll rest a while and see how it goes.

i went to the toilet to bath
and when i come out of the toilet i feel much better.
(whatever happens in between i shall not elaborate)

visited the doc this morning
and got a urine test.
outcome is i kena urine infection.
and doc say that the cramp is due to the infection lo.
thanks lehs, start of the year let me kena all these kind of shits.

but mummy and brothers just love me so much.
sorry to me u all worry.
xiaoyingying will take care more okiesss.

on a happier note,
i chatting with R on phone just now
he cheered me up a lil with his damn bloody hell nonsense.
and telling me his big hippo look like some bloody sports car.
now tell me, how can u compare an estima to a ferrari or a lambo lehs?
totally like no link.
rants to me bout his new rims and stuff.
uncle jiu shi uncle.

i wanna change my job.
should i do it before or after cny?
share with me some opinion.

my babyboy.

he look extremely cute in real.

and bb 702 came down to meet me at plaza when i was seeing doc.

and guess who she brought along?

sorry bb G,

hweeying yiyi is not feeling well,

cant bao bao and play with u much.

promise to make up when i recover ok.

muacks

Ooh boy why am i so obsessed with you?

2010-01-10T17:15:00.002+07:00

i woke up in the morning,
feel damn guilty for what've done yst.

i made lunch for mummy
told her i'll see the doc myself.
cus she didn had a good sleep last night all cause of me.

i cabbed to the doc.
it hurts and now my back is full of circle "tattoo"
i hope like what the doc say,
i'll recover tmr.

i walked over to ah pek big day and pray a lil.
a tap on my mum shoulder and i think she's pretty happy that i do tat.
i'm not good in words when it comes to her.

i'm sorry.
for the harsh words i used.
for the stubborn-ness.

i spent my weekends at home.
sleeping, eating and resting.
i'm very restless due to the cramps i suffered.

i hope carrot have a safe trip,
and come back safely!

i'm gg to make soup for dinner.
and and and 1 more kg to go!
to hit the weight tat i had when i was in my pri sch?
or mayb lower sec.

i'm feeling much more better now.
thanks mama and yunny's concern =)

2010-01-09T12:49:00.002+07:00

JUST LET ME FUCKING DIE OF PAIN
DONT EVER COMPARE ME WITH UR WHOEVER'S CHILDREN
I'M NOT NUTS, I'M NOT CRAZY.
I HATE ENOUGH OF UR NONSENSE.

I'M NOT GG ANYWHERE TO GET IT CURE.
JUST LET IT BURST INSIDE ME.
JUST LET ME CANT GET PREGNANT.
JUST LET ME DIE BECAUSE OF IT.

YOU THINK I WANNA BE LIKE THIS?
YOU THINK I WANNA HAVE THAT THINGY INSIDE ME?
YOU THINK I LIKE BEING IN PAIN EVERYDAY WHILE WORKING?

I DUN CARE WHAT GENERATION GAP IS.
I DUN CARE IF U DO UNDERSTAND THE SITUATION I'M IN.

I'M NOT GOING ANYWHERE.
JUST LET ME DIE IN PAIN!

2010-01-09T11:00:00.002+07:00

torturing week.
unknow cramps keep attacking me.
i need to get it cure later.
inbearable.

prawning at jurong hill last night.
looks like i've lost the interest in prawning.
sat ard and chit chat with yunny while waiting for znn to arrive.

i left a while after znn arrive to meet R.
had coffee and chatted.
been kinda long since i last saw him due to his forever never recover flu.

i hope u get well soon ok, R
thanks for appearing in my life.
much appreciated, friend.

2010-01-04T23:22:00.000+07:00

and i just wanna be alone...

2010-01-03T19:20:00.003+07:00

FIRST entry of 2010.

i spent my new yr eve.
at the prata shop opp my place.
with another 4 lovely bitches.

we enjoyed the lil moment where we stuffed ourselves we lotsa food.
paper prata, pataya, mutabuk(is it spell this way?), curry chix, and lotsa of drinks.
i guess it's a peaceful celebration,
just like how we spent our xmas eve.

as i aged,
i feel no excitement for this kind of festive seasons.
reason cus it's always tough to hire cabs,
every where is crowded.
and etc etc.

and i spend my new yr day,
with bblove 702
at TOWN
first day of the yr and i'm at town.
a pretty good start!

and sadly,
i didn manage to get my lingeries from la senza,
i didn manage to go DP.
i just manage to get a forever 21 top.
a WHITE one.
i seldom buy white tops.
haha, it's for CNY!
sounds kinda kiasu la.

and i spent my sat and sun rotting home.
oh yes oh yes.
i forgotten tat i gonna work on the sat.
and i was xtremely late.
BIG THANKS to teacher song for opening the door for me.
later in the day,
i met andy for coffee and home sweet home after a lil short while.

and today,
which is sunday.
i spend my whole morning cum afternoon cum evening
painting my gate.
kao, ALL ALONE.
and my body is aching.
my brain is dead.

thinking of tmr,
MONDAY!
and sch starts.
from tmr onwards i have to take control of the full pri 2 eng and yong pern's eng and maths.
and and and
teacher song's daughter pri 3 eng.

i wonder how can i manage?
i have to start marking books,
start making the children do their corrections frequently.
if not march exam there'll be hell lot of stuff to clear.
HELP ME!

and job hunting start now!
i need to go back to sch.
i need a day time non-office job.
i hate those office-politics.

enough of ranting,
pictures up!

we shall start our diet plan again.

for the sake of CNY!

1more month!

PICS FOR NEW YR EVE

DOMO is counting down with us!

FORMO with extremely bad service tat day

LAST BUT NOT LEAST

with BABY G!

yiyi love u!

2009-12-31T10:56:00.002+07:00

it's the last day of 2009.
another 12 hours more to 2010.

i've tried alot of new stuff this yr.
my first job after grad at junior talent.
dealing with lil devils everyday.
i'm loving them, and i hope they love me as much.

relationship with mummy and bros are better.
less arguments, more laughters.
i love it!

friendship with sistaz,
still as united as before.
we're still holding on and supporting each other through thin and thick.
we celebrated our 21st with full attendants most of the time.
dragon babies, i love all of you.

i started and get over the past r/s i had in less than a yr.
and i'm stronger now.
stronger than before.
nothing will ever hunt me down.
so men out there, dont ever try to even pull me or my friends ard me down.
cus i'll nv allow this to happen.

and another happy thing is i manage to pass my BTT after the 4th try.
and waiting for my FTT which fall on feb.
my biggest regret is i'm unable to get my theories done during 2009.

2010

i wanna...

get my class 3 driving license.
get a early childhood cert
change job
bkk trip
a camera
complexion to get better
and

a BOYFRIEND la

cus py and carrot was telling me.
they can forsee i wun get married le la.
kind of sad to hear this comment.
okaye, i promise i'll get laid back a lil.
i PRRROOOOMIIISSSEEEE
and find someone who dote me and dote all of u okiess?

alright, i'll end this post with a lil overdue pic

one of my new new new love! yong pern. i can sense tt i'll love him more next yr, cus he'll be under me, fully under me!

and how can i forget my lil sweetie here?

she damn damn damn chubby now.

and her mummy enjoy taking her "zheng" pic.

lil g, yiyi love you!

LAST BUT NOT LEAST

happy new yr!

2009-12-28T16:54:00.007+07:00

lunch at furama just now.
halal buffet.
was quite nice but too lil variety i guess.

went to buy cough syrup as i was coughing so badly yst.
and now feeling a lil drownsy.
and extremly sleepy.

tmr gonna work liao.
another 2 more days will off again.
HIGH LOH!

some of the over due pic is up!

2009-12-27T22:16:00.002+07:00

i have alot of photos to post,
alot of things to rant and share.

been gg out and hanging ard till wee hours this few days.
and i guess i'm falling sick very soon.
blocked nose, coughing.
feeling extremely heaty.

last night was a night mare.
i hope it will never happen again.

and i just got home from bugis with glenn.
i'm yawning away cus i feel extremely tired and restless.

i hope i can siam from the company lunch tmr.
chinatown lo.
somemore siti is not gg.
so only me, carine, teacher song and teacher wang and the aunties.
die liao lo.
somemore 1130.
lagi early lehs.
i still need to put on make up,
need to dress up and stuff.

sians sians BIG SIANS
running out of words to rant.
ciaos~

promise pic will be up soon =)

2009-12-25T10:26:00.002+07:00

MERRY XMAS

we had fun at znn hus yst.
our very very first "quiet" xmas ever in my 21 yrs of life.
and i'm loving it.

i love the time we gather tgt
and headed to sheng siong to buy our food.
and stay tgt in the kitchen pplay and washing up the foodies.
and of cus the time where we xchange gifts and i'm so looking forward to see who will get the one i bought.
PEACEFUL isnt it?
xmas eve shud be spent like this tgt with our love ones.

nevertheless,
we still have our usual drinking session on xmas day,
which is tonight la.
atlantis!!
and i heard from py bb saying it's good.
and she's very sure tat i'll love the atmosphere!

pictures will be up soon.
when bb love load it la.
den i'll just copy and paste it here lo, as usual.

i'm missing mummy.
she's away to grandpa hse till sat.
i miss sleeping with her in the night.
sleeping alone is so lonely lo.
and no one to call me in the noon asking me what i wanna eat.
and no one to prepare nice foodie for me.
sad!

hope love mummy enjoy her short lil getaway~

2009-12-19T20:03:00.002+07:00

I MISS YOU!

and do you miss me tooo?

2009-12-18T09:52:00.004+07:00

Pisces -R.

last night was good.
so much we chatted.
so much laughters we shared.

why are u still so attractive?
why do i find u so special?

it's been quite a while since we know each other,
you never failed to surprise me.
your actions, your attitude.
your (trying- not- to- show-out) care for me.

your smile melts me.
ur cheekiness nv irritate me.
your jokes are forever funny.

wth am i thinking this way?
this cant be true.

for one thing i know,
i really do enjoy myself being with you.
and i hope you do feel the same too.

you're special, so special!

2009-12-17T01:33:00.002+07:00

HELLO
i'm still alive and kicking.
last week was pretty packed hence no news of me here.
1. malaysia trip w/ 702,
2. where's pre celebration @ st james
3. where's bbq session at wcp.
4. fun fair at work place

i promise that i'll try my best to upload those photos we took during that day.
but gimme some time alright.

well, nothing much this week.
work was alright.

did i mention i passed my BTT
and now i'll be finally done with my advance theory lesson by this sunday.
and by then i'll be able to get my evaluation which i guess will be next yr alrd.
and follow by the FTT.
mama, jia you alright!

i went for revision today.
and we have weird students in the class.
asking dumb questions like why should we bring identification card for tests and etc.
and drag our lesson to a 2 hr lesson.
thanks lehs, old bitch!

and after so longg....
i had supper with bb yun
sinful, i know but long long 1 time la.
and what's more i'll be into intense diet plan by next month.
cus new yr is round the corner.
and i'll have baby P with me everyday.

bear with me a lil while,
festive season happy ma,
so will eat a bit more.

FTL2 this coming sunday in the evening,
i hope i wun forget. whahaha.
and sorry zw gf, cant acc u and awww to JB.

well, i guess that's about it now.
my life is pretty occupy with gfs, driving lesson and work.
for the rest of the thing i dun wanna think any further.
let nature takes its course.

oh yes,
any idea how to celebrate xmas?
shall we just rot at home and celebrate the white xmas?
i dun wanna caught in jams,
i dun wanna queue up for restuarants.
let's have a lil dinner and xchange our gifts.

simple, easy, meaningful!

before i leave,
pictures sharing time.

cute right?

QiQi, she's really really sweet.

i love his serious-ness at work today, just for tonight.

spontanous la. i told him i wanna take a pic of him.

so he just come up with this post.

*twist*

2009-12-06T13:54:00.002+07:00

i'm so very nua today.
i have so much craving for steamboat.
i wan some normal soup base.
but rajah inn is turning me off.
the tom yam dont tasted like tom yam when i last went.

so i discuss with py we'll just slack ard west coast.
and had our bee hoon soup since i had so much for dinner last night.

and chix rice is what i have for my lunch.
i so crave for shaker fries,
i so crave for double mac spicy.

i had ucler at the side of my mouth, and at the top of my gum.
and esp when i take in spicy food and hot food.
it hurts.
but i simple dont wanna fucking care.
and i still continue.

my throat seems to be very tight.
guess about to fall sick soon.
all thanks to the irritating weather now.

and and and
JB trip tmr.
me and py. but guess ah zheng joining too if she not working.
i wanna get a shoulder bag for work.
i need to get screen protector for my phone.
i need to help siti get her eye liner and stuff.
i wanna get my toes done by the shop i used to go.
i wanna eat my crab and the chix satay.
i wanna have bah ku teh in the noon.
i wanna go jusco.

so much things to get done,
with tat lil money.
gosh, help me!

i wonder why my cc bill is not here yet.
i wanna clear them fast.
tgt with my last month hp bill.
whahaha.

so random so random.
this month gonna save and scrimp.
1) where's birthay
2) a tower share by me and yunny for the rest.
3) i need to get more bottoms.

all involves with money.

soon will be 2010.
meaning i'm turning 22 in april.
as we aged, we find time passes very fast.

and i wish i could still stuck at my innocent sweet SIXTEEN

2009-12-05T10:21:00.005+07:00

SATURDAY

weekends weekends
i LOVE!

cus i'm able to chill at cfb till wee hours and online till lik 4am in the morning.
hence i woke up pretty late today.
like 10 plus.

i was BLOG hopping just nw,
and i happened to read to someone's blog.
another 3 party case.

now tell me, what the pt of getting married?
what the pt of makeing vows to each other.
if promise are meant to be broken, den why still make it?
what irks me most is the 3rd party is actually so damn proud of herself.
turning me off to see such woman exist in this world.

i understand that human makes mistakes,
we cant blame the guy 100%.
but, why is he giving up the whole family?
with kids somemore!
just for that woman?

has he forgotten how much he had gone thru with his wife?
has he forgotten how much his wife suffered during the labour?
or has he forgotten how much both of them used to love each other?

the world is changing.
changing for the worst!

"eating" out is not a crime.
but on the other hand,
family still must maintain.

and for the third parties,
it's ok to involved in a married man.
but pls,
dun destroy ppl's family.
it was u who chose this path.

alright, i sounds very agitated.
well, i dunno why but seems like i starting to lose faith in all men.
temptation! i noe it's hard to resist!
do it with control!!!!

actually nothing to do with me i was very very pissed when i read the girl's blog.
so i decided to let out a bit here.

PY bb,
sunday dont go lo.
since u heavy flow.
shall we go on monday?
GAN BU ooOOoOO

2009-12-04T07:25:00.004+07:00

ECP trip on yst.
i travel all alone from west coast to east coast.
i took 51 to queensway den 197 to city plaza then change cab.
whole journey took me around 2hours to reach there.

so yes, PL bb next time can take 197 to city plaza to buy our jeans liao lo.
reached and have lunch on the spot.
shaker fried. yumyum
after lunch.
we proceed to the beach.
played balls, sand castles and lastly,
the children play with water.
they had so much fun.

i was busy bring them to the toilet,
making sure they clean themselves and change into fresh clothes.
they were uber tired after whole day of outing.

i was meant to on leave today.
but teacher song's kid is sick so i have to exchange her leave with her.
which was on monday.
sians lo.

last work day of the week.
like finally.
i've been working for 6 day for the past 2 weeks.
and i guess this week i shud have ample rest so i can face the battle next week.

damn, i feel a bit of sore throat here and there.
must be due to the weather.
kids at centre all fell sick one by one.
not me not me. i dont wan lah!

i shall pack some nice dvd and bring to centre to keep them occupy.
to minimise the noise level.

i sounded to auntie-ish i know.
cant blame me either.
i dont have a choice.

so long since we last clubbed.
yes, me and yunny still owe 1 tower of beer.
reason cus we bet and we lost.
yes la, colour blind lo.

alright alright,
gtg.
i wanna meet my bitches tonight.
it's been like 3, 4 days since i last met them.
tonight alright?

stay tune, will have more pictures coming up.

meanwhile, enjoy these pictures first...

2009-12-03T08:12:00.003+07:00

i weigh myself yst.
and my weight increases.
damn hell. cus i didn control my diet recently.
and hell, i gonna stick to my diet plan this min.
no chips, no tea break and etc.

i'm gg down to ECP later.
so far.
from WCP all the way to ECP.
and i have no idea where shud i go and change bus and etc.
i hope the lil kiddos enjoy themselves over there.

took leave tmr.
reason is me and PL bb 702 are hitting JB.
just the 2 of us.
so we can save alot of time on waiting and etc.
i'll plan the whole trip tmr.
jusco to have A&W for bf
then mayb holiday plaza to let her get her nails done.
den dinner at xin shi hai.
crabby crabby crabby
den city square cus i wanna get big bag for work.

well planned hor?

zw gf cant join us cus she hitting genting.
NO MORE BETS PLEASE!
znn gonna work so i didn ask her
where gonna sch so unable too.

gf, come back with more ringgits.
and next JB trip will be on u ok!!!

oh yes, some overdued pic.

and now i just realised i haven start preparing for my

this coming thurs holiday program.

die liao lo.

py bb, need ur help!

2009-11-30T10:08:00.007+07:00

BBDC yst.
had our evaluation at 950.
first attempt, FAILED with only 80%
vent our anger on food.
so we had our late bf and early lunch at 10am plus.
went for a lesson at 1045.
2nd attempt of evaluation at 1220.
SUCCESSFUL la.

both of us were so damn happy and we went off to cck.
had some nice finger food and when we were about to go vivo.
we bump into miss seow.
catch up a lil at mac.
and went separate way cause she have an appointment.

while waiting for the second attempt. we...

out of boredom la =P

she's the one who earn my respect.

w/o her i might not even complete my n's

make our way to vivo,

had dinner at kim gary.

and we caught CASE 39.

good show.

make me tremble after the show.

and this is the over-due pic on last thurs

imm after their library outing...

see how much fun they had?

and can u imagine they still requested to play after we went back to centre?

LAST BUT NOT LEAST

how can i forget my lil gem here?

pretty aint she?

2009-11-28T06:41:00.002+07:00

time checked 7:41am.

i'm here now,
blogging at work place.
thanks to PL bb who lend me her vodafone device.
so basically i just bring my laapy over.

PL bb was sweet.
she came with L to send me to work.
had mac for bf.
much thankies.

i'm now sitting in an empty, gan si lang cold room all by myself.
i switch the air con to the lowest temperature and this is causing me to feel more sleepy.
i hope no one come in before 11 and that means i can self declare to go home early.

am gg to see lil g later. and pass her the thingy that i sewed for her.
though i didn exactly did the whole thing but well, i manage to do the shape out.
and guess we'll be heading for a movie and a lil shooping later.
but of cus i gonna go home for some beauty sleep first.
imagine i slept at 23oam yst and wake up at 450am?
my eyes are so dry,
i feel so bloated.

had a long conversation with yunny and znn yst at cfb.
we brought out history to tok and of cus the best part,
our suan-ing session.
hahah, ZW did u sneeze alot yst?
we mention alot bout ur SZ.

sleepy, lonely = emo lo
suddenly i felt like sucha failure.
everything dont seems to be on the right track.

i keep typing and clearing them.
i guess i'll just end it here b4 i get too emotional.
bye ppl.

2009-11-26T09:09:00.002+07:00

we had sewing classes for tuesday and wednesday.
my first try out sewing yst when i promised one of my student i'll help him with it.
surprisingly, it didn turn out as bad as i thought.

time passes real fast yst.
pack up and everything and knock off.
suppose to be LOVE MUMMY's day yst but too bad she gonna work.
R came to find me as he's ard jurong area.
in his air force uniform.
man are always man.
they look really good in uniform.
gosh, is that consider a fetish for uniform man?

had a lil chat and he sent me home.
cook noodles myself for my lonely candle-lit dinner.
and jurong hill at 12 mn.

brothers, totally different character.

lil g present

and they took pic of me while i'm doing lil g present

they take pretty nice pictures hor?

know why? cause i look slim in all of them.

wakakakak!

alright, we're having outing today.

jurong library and imm.

but i'll be only joining them at imm.

then after that auntie will cook us some nice cooling soup and tea break when we go back.

tell me lo, how to control??

fatfatfat!

i guess you're the only one

who has the ability to make me go ga-ga over u.

must be some black magic!

or u have sak yants tooo?

2009-11-23T22:03:00.004+07:00

sunday.
met everyone ard 11am.
headed to kranji for bus.
JB-ed

city square
-eliato
-stone grill
- vincci

holiday plaza
-pedicure
-znn dye hair
-trim my brows

the store
- zw got high cus she say it looks like OG

xin shi hai
-lala
-crab
-sambal kang kong
-hot plate tofu
-froggy
-gong bao fish slice
-malai mian
-zhao pai bee hoon
-chix and prawn sticks

guess everyone enjoyed alot.
it's kinda fun to take bus once in a while.
i wanna hit JB again.

otw there

stone grill

waiting for znn to get her hair done

this is the best part.....

carrot and geeky, are u both swallowing ur saliva?

just got home from imm,

so much changes.

shop a lil and home sweet home.

tmr i need to go for work early.

one of the teacher is on mc.

another long day for me.

let's pray hard that the children behave themselves.

andd it's outing this thurs.

imm and library..

and and and public holiday this fri.

uhoooo.

alright re-charge b4 i headed for my battle tmr.

ciaos~

2009-11-18T20:50:00.003+07:00

i spent the entire day with a heavy heart.
poor boy, pls be strong.
everyone will be praying for you.

pls recover soon

somehow, it reminds me of the incident 2 yrs back,

and the incident where me and him used to met when we're heading ecp.

life is so fragile.

pls bless the ppl ard me.

2009-11-18T09:20:00.003+07:00

overdue, overdue, overdue.
super late post for saturday.
BBDC in the morning,
follow by laksa steamboat,
den to bishan J8,
prawning~
R pick me from bishan and headed to taman jurong for supper.
home sweet home.

sunday spent another day at vivo.
searching high and low for geek's shoe.
wanted to catch a movie.
but cine's slot are all full.
dinner cum supper at shodoku.
home sweet home.

yst last min meetup at tiong bahru for dinner.
caught a movie aftermath.
gabriel pick me up after that.
his office, home sweet home.

some very very random pictures...

too much good food.

causing me to put on weight.

damn damn damn it.

and i'm msn-ing with my PL partner,

i wanna meet lil g, naughty g and pretty g

2009-11-13T22:18:00.002+07:00

HAPPY 21ST TO BA PO

celebration held at chervons.
tgt with her friends and family.
poor girl got sabotage by some "pig-dog"friends of her.
being pulled into the pool.
lil did they know that she doesn know how to swim well.
the rest of things shall not elaboate.

beside the childish acts,
i think she enjoys very much.
and she was as red as a lobster yst.
oh yes, how could i forgot.
she look gorgeous.
(but only with her mouth close)

pictures will be up on fb when she upload.
meanwhile, enjoy some we took privately.

her niece.

adorable!

pardon the blurred pictures.

but somehow i look slim here hor?

next time mus use lousy phone camera so i'll look prettier and slimmer.

this picture is damn hillarious i know,

took at laksa steamboat for sometime.

just that my PL partner took quite some time to upload in her blog

and now the blurry pictures again

did i mention i'm camping at home today,

which is also a friday.

nono, i'm not gonna work tmr.

oh, i need to hit bbdc for lesson,

then vivo to help geeky to get her shoe,

then mayb some prawning sessions at bishan.

initially i wanted to stay at home to do up my holiday programe for the children,

den swallow the whole basic theory book in.

but i got too comfortable.

hence now both is not done yet.

i'm blogging, lying on my bed.

about to sleep soon.

2 more days of leave to clear b4 the yr ends.

unsure when shud i get.

and we're gg imm, pioneer library, ecp, vivo, jurong safra for our holiday outdoor programme.

see how fortunate is the children?

something which i wanna achieve at by the end of this yr,

i wanna shed bout 3 more kg of fats in me,

i wanna complete my theories in bbdc,

i have my limits too

one of my princess drew this and insist that i MUST take a pic of it.

2009-11-11T08:46:00.002+07:00

conclusion of this entire week

i so very sad on sunday cus i didn manage to get my butterfly done.
headed to bugis then sim lim follow by marina then home sweet home.

and from monday to now.
i guess i did nothing much.
basically just eat, sleep, nua, meet up gfs.
wha lao, totally useless la.

but i gg to do something which i dragged so so long.
i'm gg BBDC.
ya la, enroll my theory for sch lo.
private 3 times cannot pass.
so gonna LL go sch lo.

$$$$ again lo.
it'll be good if i have lotsa money.

tmr will be yen's 21st.
now only left where liao.
got her a GPS as requested.
and the rest of the money we'll pack into a red packet for her.
hope she'll have a memorable one.

i promised geek that i'll accompany to get her shoe on sat.
tell me where the hell can i get man shoe with a size 5 or 5.5?
man feet got so small one mehs?

i've been eating alot these few days lehs.
damn lo, now stuck at the digit dun wan move down.
somemore i on P lehs.
wth!

mummy is so disouraging yst lo.
make me kind of turn off.
i told her i wanna take BTT.
then say was saying "iya, u failed so many times, dont need take it, waste money"
den follow by " take bus, take mrt, take taxi better, no need strain eyes. somemore safer."
wah kao, after she say this, i just told her off by saying.
" i want to take. and i wun give up half way"
den i walk off.
she know i was unhappy la.
she shud support me, aint she?

sad to see loves one who is not supportive at all.
yes, i might not have a car to drive.
but that doesn mean taking a license without a car is useless.
i still have a dream.
a dream which i wanna fulfill after i got my early childhood cert.

yes la, and tat requires money.
and the money come from her.
so tat's why i respect her and always discuss with her ma.
niether will i want if it's too expensive.
but taking a licsence is a life-time thingy.
if i dont take now, then when shud i take?
40?50?

iya, enough of ranting.

end this post with a pic of us.

now u see, do we look like PL

we do right?

but pls, both of us are only interested in D*ck

mummy, i just want you to be supportive

2009-11-07T18:52:00.003+07:00

today is sucha LONG day.
i wake up from 5am in the morning.
and got out of my house at 6am.

work was fine cus one of the naughtiest kid was not ard.
but the noise level doesn seems to improve.
just that it'll be less fights.
some unhappy things happens and i dun wanna blog it here.

we headed to chervons for the graduation cremony for the childcare group.
instructed to direct the guests into the auditorum.
it's so warm walking thru and fro.

when all the guests have arrived,
we make our way to the back stage,
help out to maintain the kids noise level.

argghh, they're so adorable.
unlike those in student care,
they're more natural.

i didn help much cus i know nothing.
so bascially i just stand ard and watch their performance.
oh, they're really really so so so cute.

towards the ending part,
is some chi graduation song.
damn sad. and i nearly tear.
luckily i manage to hold it back.

thinking bout the time when i was like them,
i used to be so stress-free, so pure and innocent.
i wanna go back to the time when i'm at K1,K2.
those were the best memories.

ended at 5pm.
and home-d at 6pm.
i was worn out, very i mean.

sorry for raising voice at you,
you know i doesn mean it.
i just wanna have some peaceful time after a hard day outside.
i bathed, and i bloody cried.
out of no reason.
but i feel stress or ist i'm giving myself unnecessary stress.

it's not about man, not about family, not about money.
i'm stressing, stressing on can i do to improve myself,
to improve my standard of living.

well, i hate myself for being so useless,
just a lil stress and i cant manage.
i wanna learn, i wanna be so strong as mummy.

i need to hit the libraby soon.
i need to plan for holiday program,
i need to think of what i shud organised for them to play.
it's not really that tough but i have no idea where i shud start with.

cam-whore while waiting for the time to reach

how sweet right? given to me by a pri 1 girl

(pardon the wrong spelling of my name)

did i mention i met up with maggie mama on friday.

though that was a short lunch but i guess we manage to catch up a lil.

glad that she happy now with eric papa.

and able to feel her xinfu-ness.

anw mama, thanks for the keychain and the sunflower.

you really brighten up my day =)

catch up real soon ok! imu~

2009-11-05T20:04:00.002+07:00

Oops, i've been mia-ing for like 4 days.
and tmr is F-R-I-D-A-Y again.
shiok.

my sat duty was exchanged.
hence will be working on the second and forth sat.
this sat gonna attend boss's childcare graduation ceremony at chervons.
wondering what i should wear?

and this weekend i'm gonna do alot alot of things.
firstly i need to get yen's present
second i need to get my butterfly
lastly i need to go bbdc to enroll for driving.

i've dragged pretty long after i failed my BTT.
and today maggie mama told me she enrolled le.
she was telling me she wuld pass earlier than me.
oh my, sucha loser right?

oh yes, agreed to meet up with maggie mama for lunch tmr.
miss her cus we used to see each other everyday for the past 2 yrs.
enjoy the way she doted and care for me.
definitely one of my pillar during my nitec life..

am sucha good girl.
came home straight after work.
dinner with mummy.
she steamed fish and the prawns i caught that day which i alrd forgotten which day.
it feels so good to be home.

anw, some nice pic to share...

my fav P2 girl.

pee-ka-poooo

playing with my paper clip and their magnets

he's sucha sweetie.

emotional kid.

laughing 1 sec, crying 1 sec

when will i be able to meet the right one?

2009-11-01T01:57:00.003+07:00

HELLOOO...
time checked, it's 3.02am.
i just got home from cine.
caught the SAW VI
i was kinda lost cause there's no sub-title.
the gore part wasnt gore enough.

well, we had a good day together.
had shoduku at heeren for dinner.
sinful sinful dinner and dessert after that.
argh, there goes my diet plan!

oh yes, b4 that we went for shopping spree.
finally, 702 settle down with her prada wallet.
very beautiful.
and the handbag there was ...
how good it'll be if i could own 1 of them.
the one i took, calf skin de.

alright alright,
pictures up!

me and the neck-less carrot

fat, Fat, and FAT

and now presenting u my fat thighs

with the hot mama!

2009-10-31T10:04:00.002+07:00

saturday is BEAUTIFUL
esp when i dont have to wake up at 5.30am.

a last min meet-up session with carrot and py.
they waited for me at clementi despite there was such a heavy rainpour yst.
so touching yeah?
and poor them, got themselves a lil wet b4 i reached.

as usual we had our dinner at formosa.
aftermath headed to optical shop cus py wanna make spec.
got everything done and slack at cfb.
geek came down half way.
manage to catch up a bit and headed home.
online-d and i K.O shortly after.

sucha waste for a friday where i shud be hanging out late.
i got so tired everytime after i work.
now i know it's hard to be a teacher.
even much HARDER to be a mother.
MAMA ZHENG WEI DA!

i'm hitting town today.
FEP cause shorty wanna get some shorts.
and PY wanna get her loots.
for me?
i'm hitting there without a target lehs.
and and and we're watching SAW IV
gross gross gross.

i miss prawning.
i miss hanging out late.
i miss having long long car rides.
i miss hitting malaysia.
i miss exploring new places.

and i miss the feeling of love =(

but somehow or rather,

i guessed i've forgotten how to love.

someone, somebody, anyone, anybody out there...

teach me, teach me how to love once again!

time for something which make me smile...

edmund, boon kiat, and xia yang

Pri 4 boys, yet the more mischevious among all.

and now book kiat was telling me he got 4 hands.

kinda lame but it just make me smile when i feel so damn tired.

aint they adorable?

Last but not Least....

i truly miss these 3 lil princess.

rachelle, giselle and eshelle!

2009-10-29T08:02:00.002+07:00

I mentioned in my previous posts that it's been a while since i go out with py.
hence, we had a PL outing last night,
just me and her alone.

as usual,
my sweetest thingy come pick me from work.
(sounds exactly like my bf)
and we had her cravings.

oh yes, i guess i forgot to mention this,
my work place kopitiam sell really good and affordable chix rice.
and the zhi char sell nice tofu.
so we had both and a fu rong egg.

after waited for her to smoke,
and we chill a lil.
we decided to do something that we hasn't been doing for long...

any idea where we went?

com'on, make a guess b4 i tell u the ans

TAA-DAAA

we went jurong hill to prawn!

though the catch we got wasn't as good as bishan,

but it feels good to prawn again after so long.

and PL partner did a good job yst.

she caught pretty much =)

now tell me,

does L.O.V.E EXIST?

2009-10-28T10:35:00.002+07:00

turned in pretty early yst.
i was super worn out but i dunno why.
i've been home for this few days after work.
and the routine is like work, home, dinner, sleep.

i'm getting more and more short-tempered,
get very very emotional sometimes.
i have no reasons why.

i walked past the area where i last saw u.
but yst,
the picture of u is so clear,
i saw the back of u walking back to ur car.

and then,
i saw myself crying in the middle.
like some crying bitches.

the feeling was like...
heartach? well, a lil
hatred? i dunno if it exist.
it's of those mix feeling.

after that i dashed home.
with my fastest speed,
and the loudest music i could on.

thinking back,
we could have lasted if i wasnt so demanding,
we could have lasted if u're more sensible.
argh, rubbish.
IT'S ALL FATED

i just took my early lunch.
i'm taking in rice everyday,
like tat how to slim down?

2 more kg to my target.
i wanna hit back the weight which i have when i was in my lower secondary.
and means i need to do something and not to be lazy.
walk more, move more and sweat more.

i'm getting bored.
same goes to my life.
someone pls enlighten me...

2009-10-25T23:10:00.002+07:00

Begin this little post withe my cutie pie.
sometimes i wonder how are u now?
are u loving the new student care?
do you miss me or the rest of the students here?

alright, enough of emo-ing,
planned to hit tiong bahru plaza in the evening.
we had boat boat,
our life time fav.
today's tom yam was good. very very good.

caught the sister's keeper.
i must say it's super HIGHLY recommended by me.
esp when u like to watch those kind of movie where u'll cry.
the fist drop of tears drop at the first 15 min,
and after that i guess it didn stop.
story line was good.
veryvery good. THUMB UP!
4/5 for sister's keeper!

my eyes got so swallon after crying so much.
it has been pretty long since i cried till this extend.
and i used up a packet of tissue.

life is so cruel to kate and anna.
needles poking thru them still they're young.
why does they have to go thru so much,
when other children are having fun?

alright, my eyes are closing, time for bed babies!

unique her

solo

and now i drag carrot into the pic

and follow by my full time cam whore khakis!

2009-10-24T08:55:00.003+07:00

i had been a really good girl recently ever since mummy changed her working hours.
and guess what?
i choose to camp at home on a F-R-I-D-A-Y night.
something which i dread to do.

i woke up pretty early this morning,
thinking of what i should do.
basically nothing.
so here i'm.
blogging away.
sounds kind of pathetic right?

and guess tonight shall be another home-camping
cause they're hitting st james.
yes, hard core clubbers.
they have been like there for wed, yst and tonight.
wow, impressive right.
i dont think i've have that kind of passion for it.

oh yes,
yst was really a bad day for me.
i was being to be put alone with this 20 over kids from 3 to 430.
all i did was shouting, and shouting.
one if my fav boy was extrememly disobedient yst.
i swear i nv stare so hard at him b4.

later part all of them was being punished,
including my tat fav boy.
he cried so hard when teachers scolded him.
and i guess he know his mistakes,
so he kept coming to me, asking me to help him with his corrections.

i was really really angry.
so i shoo him away and ask him to ask another teacher.
whenever i walked pass him,
he'll give me that kind of "forgive me" face.

towards the end,
i sat beside him,
i looked into his eyes,
and he cried.
it just drop down like he has been bearing it for so long.

i asked him,
haven i dote u enough?
didn me treating u well enough?
he nod and he apologise.
i swear at tat pt of time,
my tears are just at the verge of my eyes.
i swallowed and walked away in case it drop.

why am i so emotional?
i cried once when i scolded genial so hard for being naughty.
now is my student.
what will i be when it's my own children?
i dont wanna pamper them.
yet i know i cant bear to be too harsh to them.

it has been really enjoyable to work in this line.
and i really learnt alot.
the patient i need to have,
has being stretch like as rubber band.
and now it has become more flexible.

but i know i cant continue this for life.
i need to have a cert,
so that i can pay well.
i cant imagine when i gonna leave those kids.
but well, things come and go in our life.

i need to learn, if not i'll never succeed

2009-10-22T09:21:00.003+07:00

i met py yst for dinner.

been pretty long since i last met her.

remembered it was last sunday when we caught halloween 2 together.

sounds lesbby but indeed we used to meet everyday ma.

finally it's thursday today.

1 more day to 2 rest days.

had enough of the noise level.

i screamed till my throat are painful now.

a bit sore i think.

i had a very very very good sleep last night.

i dozed off when i was online.

my god, i seldom do this.

and i still manage to wake up and off it and go back to lala.

and slept all the way to this morning 9 plus.

which is pretty late.

gg home for dinner today again.

mummy say she wanna cook wanton me for me.

yummy.

alright, nothing interesting to blog alrd.

will update sooon again!

in case u all forgot how i look like.....

this lil picture is enough for u all to get nightmare tonight =P

ciaosss~

2009-10-21T08:29:00.002+07:00

turn in pretty late yst.
met M and he brought me to see his plane.
seems interesting cause i've not been so near to a plane b4.

labordor park with felix.
he jogged and basically i just hang ard enjoying the breeze and the scenery.
it's been so long since i did this.

now i wanna go ecp so much.
i wanna sit there and enjoy.
the quietness, so comfy.

this gonna be a hard week.
all the kids are having holidays.
hence they're all back to centre.
the noise level is unbearable.
the amt of times have to scream and shout increase so much.

now my throat is not feeling good.
i guess i'm having a flu soon.
and i cant afford to have anymore mc this month.
i just took 2 days last week when i had my cold sore.

i'm feeling so sleepy.
reason cause i woke up too early today.
ard 7plus.
damn damn damn.
i need to rest.

have been a good girl these few days cause i'm back home for dinner.
and mummy is pretty happy,
minus away the part where i go out in the night.

presenting to u 2 of my lovely cuties.

aint the boy cute?

oh my, he's another one that i dote so much besides minwei and gary.

hey, notice i dote on boys more?

and worst was they're the naughtier ones.

he's really sweet, esp when he greeted me everytime i go in the centre.

and now presenting u these 2 crazy woman.

i got a shock when i realised they took this and change into my wall paper.

and you see the sum por.

damn act cute lo.

i wanna slim down.

20 more kgs pls!

2009-10-19T23:55:00.002+07:00

MONDAY BLUEEEE!

as usual,
work is tiring cause it's a sch holiday for the children
and all of them come back centre.

i had a hard time maintaining their voice level.
had a harder time to make sure they complete their test paper.
so many diff character, attitude.

home after work.
dinner with mummy.
meet felix.
wcp, labordor park and home sweet home.

tmr shall be just another day like today.
it's so bored.

i wanna dam,
i wanna prawn,
i wanna jb,
i wanna genting,
i wanna shopping,
i wanna slim down,
i wanna have lotsa love,
i wanna, i wanna.....

and now, i just wanna rest my mind and sleep.
nighty folks!

2009-10-18T11:39:00.002+07:00

woke up early cause it's daddy's death anniversay.
thinking back.
he had passed away for so long.
the last time i saw him was primary 3.

ever since that day,
mummy play a role as a daddy and a mummy.
taking care of our needs physically, all the way to mentally needs.
she has, always been very very supportive towards what we wanna achieve.

daddy, pls bless mummy to have good health.
and gimme a bit more time.
i promise i'll give her a good life.

now i'm waiting for her to come back and have lunch tgt.
feeling a bit hungry.

i'm having cramps.
xinku xinku.

i miss prawning.
it's been so long.
tat u haven seen me there....

and i seriously need to do something to my hair.
getting out of hand.
ugly ugly.
i feel so ugly all over!

i'm feeling so hot,
even thought the fan is just infront of me.
and i'm perspiring all over.

alright alright, gtg.
ciaos

2009-10-17T10:35:00.002+07:00

It's Saturday again.
i feel so stress
thinking bout the last 2 sat i had with those lil kiddo.
1 teacher to 6,8 supre active kids.
where they run, their talking is like shouting.
they disobey.
i had a hard time with them alone,
esp on most sat.
nevertheless, at times, they're still super aborable and sweet

and when they dont listen, we bribe them with food

It's genial's 2nd big birthday today,

i hope u enjoy the lil, simple celebration we had for u.

it might be smelly, sticky, noisy.

but i hope u like the night we arrange for u.

with sisterhood and some of mummy's close friends who love u.

i might scold u,

i might hit u,

it's all for ur good baby.

yiyi love u very much,

definitely not as much as your mummy.

pls be good,

all the yiyis wanna see u grow up healthly.

we wanna see u gg to sch to study.

we wanna attend ur pre sch, pri sch, sec sch and so and so on graduations.

we want u to grow old with us.

LAST BUT NOT LEAST,

A BIG HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO OUR DEAREST GENIAL!

out of a sudden,

i realised i've lost the passion in the current job i have.

why am i feeling like this?

it was and still is my dream.

i wanna find back the passion i used to have.

and beside that i lost my passion in take quality piutures of myself and others,

i lost the ability to have good and funny entries.

look what have i become?

where does all the courage and faith in me gone to.

beginning of the yr,

i claimed i wanna get license,

and now i just gave up cus i failed BTT 3 times.

where some told me they failed much more then i do.

i oso said i wanna get up childhood course,

i've dragged like half a yr, and i'm still stuck,

stuck in nowhere.

failure failure failure.

how can i just slack my life away like this?

dont i wanna have a better life in future?

i need to do something for the drastic change in me.

i dont wanna slack anymore.

mummy is being extremely supportive towards my license and pursuing my studies,

yet i'm here drag and drag.

i'm sorry mummy,

for being sucha bad daughter ever since young till now.

though i dont show, but i love u,

very much mummy.

time to stop getting emo and buck from where i stop.

no more time left!

2009-10-15T21:18:00.003+07:00

THURSDAY NIGHT IS BEAU-TI-FUL
jw to bb back to wc.
i only manage to reach home ard 830.
mummy waited for me for dinner.
so sweet of her.

i finally get my loots.
oh dear, i love the leopard top.
butbutbut, i dont think it look good on me =(

tmr will be GENIAL second biggg birthday.
oh, time passes so fast.
remember clearly the first time i held her in my hand.
she was just a few months old.
and now, she's 24mths.
big girl alrd.

she has progress very very fast.
my smart lil big baby.
super active, adorable but very very stubborn.
GENIAL, AHYI LOVES YOU OK.
pls be good girl and listen to mummy.

and bbq session tmr.
aww, long day again.
and mummy just told me she cooking crabby this sat.
so friends, i'll be able to go in the late evening.
after consuming my mummy's crabby.

alright time to hit the sack.
night everyone. muacks

2009-10-11T09:29:00.009+07:00

i met the beauties after my work at jp.
they had fei cui la mian for lunch.
and i took 2 of py's xiao long bao.
HAHA yummy yummy.

FGH cause zw wanna get her basic.
now all of us are ajahn's "children" liao,
except for carrot , where and yen.
and i promised willie i'll go back next month b4 ajahn go back to get my
LIL BUTTERFLY.

off we went city plaza to shop.
i got 3/4 and a vintage bag.
py got herself a 3/4 which i think she loves alot alot.
and zwww got herself more frangances..
not as if she's very smelly.

next stop marina.
oh damn oh damn,
i seriously dun wanna rant.
but i couldn control the damn anger in me.

i had so much wanted to catch this "april bride" show
and and and
to my biggest disppointment,
i left 1hr after the show is screened.
seriously, the worst show i ever catch.

long-winded.
and i think the female lead is super lousy.
it didn touched me at any point.
expression-less, talking in a mono tone.
slow 3 sec.
wah, it consist all the bad point u can find in a lousy movie.

oh yes, cold sore attack is bad.
i'm a sad girl once again =(
baby, i wan u recover fast fast ok?
i dun wan to look ugly and i'm alrd not very pretty.

and and and , what's the program today?
sweetie bro of mine went down tabao beehoon for me.
sweet hor?

alright, i gonna go plan for genial's big day,
and check out the date for our next 4D3N genting trip which zw and py agrees.

oh yes,
it's been too long since u spotted my face in my blog yeah?
there it goesss...

our lunch

last but not least

mama's and papa's big day!

though a bit late but it's always better to be late than nv.

BIG CONGRATES!

2009-10-07T07:36:00.002+07:00

i hit home straight after my work with my fav frog yst.
had dinner with mummy.
can u imagine, it's so damn long since i last sit down and have dinner with her
ever since when i'm pri 3.
not counting her off day la, of cus.

and i feel so good to have her ard in the night,
watching tv with her.
bonding bonding bonding.
i chased her to slp at ard 11pm.

and i cant sleep all the way to like 3am.
after my chat with py.
imagine 2 siao char bor laughing at 3 am?
and my phone went *tututu* battery flat.

and i K.O at ard 3 plus.
but not having good sleep cus my insomia symptom is back
and now i'm awake at a damn 8am.
shit, today will be a LONG DAY

i meeting py and lil devil at 10am cus i wanna do something to my eyebrow.
i need to do something.
it's really getting a bit turn off when i look into the mirror myself.
hahaha..

and and and i change my schedule to work this sat.
cause lil devil bdae is next.
she turning 2!
and soon will be 3, 4, 5 and then hit 21.
and by then we'll be like 40 yrs old?
argh, old lo..

by then what will i be?
will i be married with kids?
or still hanging ard single?
i dun wanna be lao chu nu lehs!!!

hao le ba, i need to go and wake my hubby and lil devil up alrd.
oops, so les hor?

2009-10-04T18:08:00.003+07:00

TIME CHECKED: 7.08PM

oh myyy,
my JB trip is cancel.
that explains why i'm here,
blogging at this time,
where i shud be enjoying my salted egg crab, my chao-ta beehoon and my fav hor fan,
mayb with a bit of kangkong and stuff.

i decided to camp home today,
cus i was feeling damn sad.
HAHA, so affected with the cancelled JB trip.

and i was all prepared to be scolded by that lady(if she still rmb me)
bout my cui + buang + full of dead skin feet.
arggghhh,
spoiling my day.
my B-E-A-U-T-I-F-U-L sunday.

and now i'm so god damn bored.
i tried to sleep but i just could'n
reason is i slept the whole evening yst.
from 5 to 9 den 11 to 9 this morning.
how to sleep now u tell me.

so basically i just keep eat eat and eat.
and now i feel so damn regret lah!
baby P i'm desperate for you.
and i'm getting u tmr,
yes. i blardy hell swear i'm getting u tmr.

bored bored bored.
somebody HELLLPPPPP plsss..

oh yes,
i watch the last ep of BU FAN DE AI which was repeated at bout 5 plus.
and bloody, i cry lo.
same part which i cried the last time.
so emotional freak la...

now i'm lost of words to rant.
i wanna rant somemore lehs.
to kill some of my excess time.

let me think...

oh yes 2 more weeks to my baby gen 2nd bday.
where shall we bring her to?
what shall we get for her?
guess i have to do some mind mapping and some planning.

and now i'm mummy's guai nu er cus i becoming more and more ZAI NU.
mummy will be darn happy lah.
pei her eat dinner, pei her watch her fav taiwan hokkien drama "AI"
listen to her repeated rants.
and etc etc...

hao le ba, i guess i wasted like 15 -20 min with this lil post.
LOL, great achievement!

ciao, babiesssss!

2009-10-03T00:50:00.002+07:00

TIME CHECKED: 1:50AM
REASON WHY I'M STILL ONLINE: waiting for my damn hair to dry.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YEN'S BABY (STELLA)

Heyyy,
i just got back from stella's birthday bbq at wcp.
had a great night,
and FUCK!
i swear i eat damn much.
chocolate mashmellow, chicken wing, friend bee hoon, taiwan hot dog and etc etc.
thinking back now imakes me wanna cry.

i'm so gg to weigh myself tmr.
and i hope i dont shoot up much.
if not like what me, py and where was saying,
we might just jump down from our house.

it's so damn sinful, sinful and fucking sinfu.
the full-ness making me all so god damn tired after the nice bath.
now i'm waiting for my curly, cui, thick hair to dry.
and it seems like taking a decade to do so.

i'm typing this entry,
yawning away (w/o any sounds ok, py!)
wiping my tears away from my eyes.
and i only have like 3hrs to slp cus i gonna wake up at 530 tmr for work.
urgggh,
i need a facial seriously and desperately.
i need to do something to my cui face.

i'm all so lazy to put on the masks i've stock up.
slap me plssss!

oh yes oh yes.
it's lanten festival today.
so long since we last celebrated tgt.
oh sucha romantic night,
but i'm celebrating with a bunch of crazy bitches.
how good it'll be if...
see la, dreaming again!

ladies, shall we go for prawning session tmr?

am so damn looking forward to sunday's JB trip.
crabby, HERE I COME!

2009-10-01T09:32:00.009+07:00

it's CHILDREN'S DAY!
and yippie, i got to enjoy this holiday with them.
had celebration yst.
all of them were really happy and keep showing me how much gifts they received.

totally worth to pay a lil money and see them smile so happily.
i wish i was a kid,
with no worries,
all i need to care is homework and still homework.

and it was unice and gary last day.
they're transferring to another student care nearer to their place.
and they're one of those whom i dote most.
i'm gonna miss them.

i guess i sleep a lil too much,

and when i sleep too much i tend to dream..

i dreamt that someone telling me

u and her is planning for a divorce.

and now u both are somehow like separated.

the rest i couldn remember

damn lehs,

so dumb la.

i want u and her to be happy.

loving someone is all bout seeing the person happy, aint it?